All Poems by: Surreal Annastzia Cox "I got everything i want, but still I want more" I just wish u knew how much I cared, and how much I love you. It scares me.. I am too scared of too much.. I don't know what to do anymore.. Rest In Pieces!!!! I don't even know how to explain how I feel.. my life shattered in front of me too quickly.. my lungs hurt so bad its hard to breath.. my heart beats slower and slower as each day goes on.. I have become so weak I can barely move.. my eyes are all dried out.. my hands shake from the pain.. my head pounds with the words that were said.. I cant handle what just happened.. I never thought in my life I would get this big of a blow to the heart.. I wish I could erase the memory of me and u.. but I can and don't want to.. so many good times.. but it makes my stomach cringe.. it makes me eyes water as I lay in my bed alone.. it makes me feel like I have no hope.. makes me wish I could take a blow to the head rather than feel this pain.. I still love you and always will.. which gets me the worse.. forever and always my baby you'll be.. I wish we could have fixed things.. but it seems that cant happen.. I am sorry.. bye :'( "Call it off" I'm too scared.. what do I do?? how I really feel about u you hate the way that my words come together at your expense you wish that when I wrote I wouldn't have to be so honest show some tact or show some class or maybe just some respect but I'll respect you when you respect me, what can you expect? I'm just being honest I still fight the urge to call I know there's nothing to say but I still love you and I think about you everyday its not easy for me though I know I act like it is i feel the pain, it hurts so bad i guess I've got to fake it just like I've got to say this this song is the b side to the truth about how I really feel about you I know sometimes my words they burn like hell but I still want you, if you can't tell its hard to see you I know that we have to act like were friends force a smile, fake a hug and try not to act nervous how am i? I'm good, no great, no perfect. Life's just a treat I ask you question after question, I don't want you to leave I just want you to see this song is the b side to the truth about how I really feel about you I know sometimes my words they burn like hell but I still want you, if you can't tell I've got the keys, if you wanna roll I'll take you anywhere that you wanna go or climb in the back seat like when we first met I'll lay on my back while you lay on my chest FUCKKKKKK YOU!!!!!! one day.. u r gonna regret what u have said to me.. how u have treated me.. how u ignored me.. how u made me cry.. how u never gave a shit.. u cant drag me around like a little teddy bear on the ground.. and think I am always there.. I may once have always been there.. but tonight was the last straw.. the last argument.. the last time I will care for ur ass.. I mean I will always care.. but i will never show it.. never tell u.. and u will never ever see it in my eyes or face again.. u don't deserve my glances.. u don't deserve my stare.. u don't deserve my love.. u threw it around too much.. I was nothing in your little life.. nothing at all.. and u made that perfectly clear this past week.. u never loved me.. and don't pull that shit saying u did.. maybe u thought u did.. but u don't know what love is.. I was a teacher.. simply just a teacher in your life.. so my time is up.. I can not be there for u.. I can not hear your bitching.. I can not hear your voice.. I can not hear your careless words anymore.. u throw your words around like they are nothing.. u say something someone wants to hear.. never what u want to say.. so this is the last time I hear your bullshit lies and words that don't mean a thing.. i will not call even if I want to.. I will not text even if i want to.. I will not visit u even if u want to.. I will NOT tell u i love u.. even if i want to.. I will not answer your calls.. I will not answer your texts.. until one day.. u treat me with great respect.. and treat me like a human being.. and maybe apologize.. one day this will all hit u.. maybe not soon.. but one fucking day.. one day u will want me again.. one day u will apologize and cry for me.. like I cried for u.. maybe one day u will grow a heart.. and actually care about someone other than yourself.. It's always been about u and yours.. never about someone else.. one day you'll realize I wasn't so bad.. one day you'll be honest with me and tell me how u actually feel.. maybe one day you'll be a real person and not a fake one.. Don't get me wrong.. I will love u always... and I always have.. but until that day comes to where u want me.. or u apologize.. or u treat me with respect.. I wont talk to u.. I will never forget u.. just I will hold my ground till u are nice to me.. and tell me the truth.. and are not so into yourself.. so until that day.. goodbye.. I love u and always will.. u will never be forgotten.. and my feelings will never be lost.. |
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